Hmm.. It's been a while.

I logged on to Xanga again.. after about a year.  Crazy.  Well.. here's a little update on my life.

I have the most amazing boyfriend, whom I love very much!  His name is Bo Gibbs.  Yes.  He is amazing.

I attend LifeChurch in Edmond, as well as Harrah Church of the Nazarene.  I believe my calling has been changed to building relationships, rather than working so much in church building itself.  There's a long story behind that one.. which I will save time by not writing.  Go see it on my MySpace.. if you want.

I take classes at Rose State College and UCO.  My major is currently Business.. and it is boring.

I am a supervisor at Rose State College and at the Oklahoma Redhawks in the Retail Department.  I work a lot.. and probably too much.  Oh well.

Don't worry.. it'll be okay.  God's got everything under control.

Oh.. and I don't hate myself anymore.  Haha.

Rant.

Life has been interesting here lately.  And here I go...

School.  I'm overwhelmed with homework.  I should get off here and study.. but if I don't rant.. I'll just keep procrastinating.. and putting it off.  I have too many papers to write.. too many tests to study for.. and no time.  I have too many other things to do. 

Work.  I'm about ready to quit.  I'm sick of the slackers and having to pick up the slack, because they're too lazy to give a crap.  I'm sick of people not being man enough to step up and yell at them.  I know.  I know.  Worry about myself only, right.  Well.. it's hard.  I'm sorry.  Forgive me.  Enrollment starts next week.. and I know how bad it's going to get.  They have no clue.. and I don't think they'll step up to the plate when they figure it out.  Blah.

Church.  Is okay.  Things are still hectic with the looking for a new pastor and such.  I think I stress myself out when it comes to these things.. because I feel as though I should do so much more than I do.

Relationships.  I'm sick of them.  I'm tired of fighting with friends.. I'm tired of being yelled at by family.  Blah.  I don't know.  I feel as though I have been giving people the cold shoulder.. and have been being a jerk.  I hate myself right now.

It's been a while..

I have updated on this thing in forever.  The more I think about it.. the more I realize that I have pretty much just quit blogging all together.  I need to get back into it.. it helps to write things down.  I don't know.. just my thoughts.  So.. here's what's new...

I cut my hair and pierced my ears.  It's different.. but it was random.. and I wanted to do it.. so I did.  Talk about a run-on sentence.  Anyways..  I like it.  The hair isn't too much different.. except these people did an awesome job on the layering.. if I might say so myself.  I needed a cut.. considering I hadn't cut it since May.  I'm still going for the hippie look.. it's just healthier, now.  The piercing isn't all that much different.  It is.. but it's not.  It's a nice little addition to my randomness.  Some people have noticed it.. and some people haven't.  Some people can't seem to figure out what's different.. although they know something has changed.  Some people like to play with them and pretend their going to pull them out.. and they will get drop kicked to the face!  Right now I just have 4mm white gold balls.  I plan on getting some barbells.. and loops with balls.  I can't explain it on here.. but yeah.  I will also have my neon and glow-in-the-dark randomness.  Yeah!!  It will be special.  I promise.

Music..  I'm in a band at church called How to Move A Coke Machine with Sara, Richie, and Josh.  It's okay.. but I still miss Adamantine.  No one will ever live up to that band.. atleast no one I've met so far.  Geez.. it was so perfect.  Blah.. if only it had been a Christian band.. with Christian guys.. but I can say that those guys are awesome!!  I'm taking piano, drumset, and guitar this semester.  I'm really glad that I picked up the guitar again.  I love playing so much.  Then there's the fact that I can actually haul it around with me.. and play whenever I feel like it.. unlike my drumset or piano.  I have really built my confidence on the drums, thanks to Shelley.  She's awesome.  

Classes are okay.  Most of my classes are music related.. so it's nice.  The few that are general education courses are not that bad. 

Life in general is good.  I've got my problems.. but that will never change.  Life has no definition without complications.  It just wouldn't be the same.  Struggles with friends and family will always be there.  No one will ever get along perfectly.  We all make mistakes.  Sometimes we crash and burn and bring people down with us.  Sometimes we build each other up.. and don't even know it.  It's good to have them.. through the thick and the thin.  Thanks.

Update..

Life is good.  Despite all of the hard times right now, I'm looking up at those things to come.  You ever wonder how in the world something good might ever come your way, when it always seems like the world is crapping on you?  Yeah.. I'm at that point in life.  The world has been crashing down for far too long.. all year in fact.. now I'm just waiting for that great return of the permanent smiles.  Things could be good.. if we just let them.. so I'm going to celebrate those little things. 

My socks keep falling down. 

My phone never rings..

..but I always leave it on.

In case, you decide to call.